when is the right time?

there were times when i really wanted to conceive and have another baby in the house. at those times i could really just try to make it happen. but the more Esha grows, the more discussion comes around my husband and i. things like if Esha is independent enough to be a big sister (the fact is we always know that she will always be ready to be a big sister whenever the time is. it's a natural process as long as the parents do their homework too), and whether we should expect the conceiving to happen after we move to our new house (which still takes LOTS of time to improve).

but the inconvenient truth my husband and i know is that we have fallen in love with Esha too much and been enjoying our every single second with her like crazy. we wonder if we could share our hearts. it doesn't sound fair to me (despite the fact that even the fertilization hasn't happened yet). probably him being the last child -and only boy- in his family and me being the first child in my family make us see this matter in different ways.

i don't know... i guess we're just not ready yet and that we're having too much fun with Esha at the moment and just wanting to seize our days with her for the time being. i believe the time will come for us to make the real decision and up our minds about it.